Hello! Welcome to my little corner of the web. I'm Bernie or Sydney, or you can just call me the Librarian. I use they/them pronouns and I'm an adult, though I'd rather not get any more specific than that.

I'm not as attached to labels as I used to be, but I still really like the ones I have, so here are a few things to know: I am very queer! I'm transgender and nonbinary, as you can probably tell. demiromantic and demisexual, and I'm interested in people regardless of gender with a preference for other trans folks, though I don't use any more specific label for that. I'm also autistic and ADHD (among other things).

In terms of lesser-known identities, I'm an alterhuman, meaning that I don't identify with the common societal idea of humanity. You might be familiar with otherkin; this is a broader label encompassing similar experiences to that! Primarily, in terms of species, I'm a moth, an artificial intelligence, and a member of the Carapace Cross from the Secret Histories universe (Glaeterfleoge-kind, if you're familiar with the source material). My main three (though it's safe to say I'm interested in people regardless of gender with a preference for other trans folks). I'm transgender and nonbinary; it gets a bit more complicated, but that isn't that important. I'm also polyamorous, though my current relationship isn't open or with multiple people. Technically. More on that later.

I'm also neurodivergent and mentally ill. I'm not gonna go into too much detail other than that I'm autistic and ADHD. You'll just have to figure it out based on how I act LOL

The places I'm most active are in the column on the left, but that isn't every site I'm on! My go-to usernames are @symurgist and @thirteenthlibrarian, and sometimes @nyctodromist if I can't get either of those. If none of those three are available, it could really be anything. Probably a Secret Histories reference, if we're being honest. Who knows, you might see me around somewhere :]

Crossrow and the Haustorium; the Grove of the Green Immortals and the Tomb of Lies; the Yeshiva Tigris and the Monastery of the Fifth Cup; the Invisible Serapeum and the Labyrinth of Lions; and here.

hello! welcome to my little corner of the web. i'm bernie, or sydney, or you can just call me the librarian. i use they/them pronouns, and i'm an adult, though i'd rather not get any more specific than that.

i am very queer. a few of my labels include greyaromantic, demisexual, polyamorous, nonbinary, and sungender. i'm also very neurodivergent and mentally ill, though i'm not going to share any of those specifics as readily (you'll just have to figure it out from how i act lol).

one thing i will share is that i'm autistic! my special interest for the past two and a half years has been alterhumanity (more specifically spiritual fictionkinity, though i'm interested in anything on the topic), and my hyperfixations fall under a similar umbrella; i'm usually hyperfixating on whatever media my current kinshift(s) are from. for the past year or so, it's been the scp mythos with a side of the project moon games (lobotomy corporation, library of ruina, and limbus company). i don't really have a space to talk about that, so i suppose that's what this website is for?

i'm a writer who struggles to write, probably because of the compounding mental illnesses and all that, you know how it is. i'm also alterhuman, primarily spiritual fictionkin - my primary kintypes are a moth, an artificial intelligence, the glaeterfleoge-kind of the carapace cross, and the twice-born from book of hours. if you can't tell, the secret histories universe is a deeply important source to me, so i'll probably be talking about it a lot!